Lessons from First Semester

Today I finished my first semester of my senior year. Once I have finished my AP Lit exam, I will officially be 7/8 of the way done with high school. Hahaha. I am uncomfortable with that thought. First semester went by really quickly. I'm not sure where it went. It seems like just yesterday I was sharing my high school advice, and this post is kind of an extension of that one. (Also before I get too long winded, please make sure you watch this!)

Senior year is really different than the rest of high school because you are applying for college, figuring out what you will be doing for the next four years, do things for the last time, and oh yeah, studying for school. Senior year is stressful in a way that no other year is because of college haunting you. I'm grateful I only applied to four colleges with two of them being rolling admissions and one being early action and other having a February decision release. There wasn't a whole lot of waiting time for me because I already knew I got into a college by September. While I wasn't necessarily stressing over getting into college, I was stressing about deciding where to go. It's a big decision to decide where you're going to spend the next four years of your life. One of the things my mom kept telling me was that it was my decision. Not hers. Not my dad's. Not my sister's. Not my friends'. Mine. Usually she said that when I asked her where she thought I should go. Then my dad always told me that I was going to be happy no matter where I went because I would do things that made me happy. That all kinda left it up to a gut decision, which I am horrible at. I need facts, not feelings. I keep saying this, but I plan on doing a post about my decision and the process I went through to decide.

Despite the stress of college, this year has probably been my favorite so far. At the beginning of the year, I decided I was going to do everything that I could to make this the best year yet. Going to all the games I could. Hanging out with my friends as much as I could. Seeing all the productions. Very rarely saying no to an opportunity. Taking classes I love. Life's a whole lot more fun when you're having fun. One of the reasons I loved high school so much was because I tried to be involved in as much as I could handle, and I think that's just how life is. Sure, there are days where I say I hate school, and I don't want to come back, but in general, I have really loved high school because of what I was doing. I absolutely loved being on newspaper, working with the football team, and blogging, which has been a huge part of high school for me. I never did something that I didn't want to do except taking physics. Also I probably loved this semester a lot because I've slept more in the past five months than I have in the past three years. 

I'll tell y'all a secret... I made my first B this year. Granted, it was an A with the five points I get from it being an AP class, but without those points, I made a B. I've never made a B more except for eighth grade math, which I don't count because I cried my way through the entire class. I worked really hard, and it stil didn't get me a natural A. It sucked. I cried for about three hours on Wednesday, but then I realized something. Who cares? I went through almost four years of high school without making below a 90, and that in itself is impressive. Maybe (probably) I put too much pressure on myself for three and a half years. I talked to my economics/government teacher yesterday, and she told me how I earned that B. You can earn a B or even a C. There are classes where you work for every point, and you still ended up with a B or a C or a D. Maybe it's just my high school, but there's this culture surrounding the high achievers that the all thing that matters is making A's, which is definitely not true. I am grateful for my first B in high school. There will probably be a lot more where that one came from when I go to college, and now I know for sure that the sun will still rise the next day.

I hope all of your exams went well and your semester break is fantastic!
xx, jKm

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