What's Next?

I should probably be sleeping right now (or studying . . . or a mixture of both), but for the first time in months I have had the urge to write. I figured I should take this burst of energy and want and run with it because I honestly have no idea when this will happen again. For the longest time, I have wanted to write something, but I didn't know what. I felt conflicted because of everything that's going on in the world. Do I acknowledge it? Do I ignore it even though I don't really want to? Do I even really share my opinion? So I picked the easiest option -- doing nothing at all.

I talked to my roommates about this a while ago. I constantly have thoughts running through my head, but I rarely actually finish my thoughts. I'll think, maybe this is something I should talk about or write about or think about longer than 3 seconds. But the thought would quickly leave as soon as it came, completely unfinished. The most frustrating part was I wanted to complete these thoughts I was having. Unfortunately, the beginning of August was crazy hectic between driving to Alabama, having workshop week/rush week, actually moving into my apartment, starting school, and trying to start off on the right foot in all my classes. It was a lot, and I decided there wasn't time to sort through my brain, find the "blog worthy topic," and write.

Except what is a blog worthy topic? I've become disillusioned with blogging lately, which is frustrating. At this point everyone and their mother blogs, and there is a huge issue with content overload. Very few things are original at this point. How many blog posts about agendas or sorority recruitment outfits do there really need to be? I admit. I am guilty of falling into the trap of the standard blog post. I especially did it when I didn't have any ideas but felt like I needed to get a blog post up. I wanted to be more authentic in my blogging in the new year, and while I think I have been true to myself, I don't believe my content over the first seven months of the year was original. I have the utmost respect for the bloggers I follow who I feel like create good, original content, especially when it comes to fashion and lifestyle content, but I just don't think that's for me anymore. Or at least right now.

Right now I just want to write. I want to write down my thoughts and feelings about everything and all things, which I think will be healthy for me. I want to talk about what I am studying in class, what I am doing in college, and what I want to do in the future. I want to talk about the lessons I've learned and about how I am coping with my mental health. One of things I miss about high school (which is honestly not a lot) is being on newspaper and being able to tell stories, so I am going to use this blog to try and tell my story. I don't know what's that is going to entail. I can't promise a blog post every week or even every month, but I can promise I'll try to make it interesting.

Until next time, 

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