My Thoughts on 2016

I've been trying to come up with a word to describe 2016, and I finally settled on one when I was at dinner with my best friend Tori. 2016 was a weird year. Everyone keeps calling it "the worst year ever" and whatnot, and while I do agree a lot of bad things happened this year, I can't tell if more bad things happened or if I am just more aware of the bad things happening in the world. And this was an election year, and I feel like all election years are weird and terrible, especially this one in particular. I think this year seems really bad relative to other years because I am older, and I do recognize more of what's going on in the world. Honestly, this year hasn't been all bad either. If this really was the worst year ever, the Yankees would have won the World Series and not the Cubs. 

Since everyone is adamant this year was the "worst," I have felt bad thinking this, but personally, I had a pretty good year. It's hard for me to hate a year where so many good things happened. I graduated high school. My dad moved home. I went to college and joined a sorority. I attended some pretty awesome football games. I fell in love with my major. I found some of my best friends. I met Rece Davis, Sam Ponder, and Paul Finebaum. It can be summed up like this, for the world, 2016 could definitely be seen as a bad year, but for me, 2016 was pretty great.

Remember when Kylie Jenner told us that this year would be the year we realize things? I want to say the biggest thing I realized was how much I deserve but that makes it seem like I think the world owes me something and that's not what I think at all. I guess it more like I realized what I want out of life whether it's in my career choices or my relationships or my personal life. A lot of this happened because I started putting myself first instead of the expectations of other people, and I talked about this when I talked about my anxiety. Obviously, I still want to make people like my parents proud, but I stopped caring (or have almost stopped) what other people expect of me. I realized what I am doing should always make me happy and make me proud of myself. I should never do something because it is what someone else "expects" me to do. 

My goal for 2016 was to focus on myself, and I think for the first time I actually accomplished a New Year's goal. I feel like I grew up a lot this past year, and while there were definitely some trying times, this year was a lot about personal progress. I am starting to be in a place where I am extremely comfortable with who I am, which is a HUGE first in my 18, almost 19, years. Obviously, there is a lot I didn't accomplish this year because my to-do list is always a thousand miles long, but I feel like there is a good precedent for the new year. 

As for 2017 and the world, I am going to keep fighting and making noise because becoming complacent about anything is not on my agenda. There will be rough moments for some people, but it's up to the ones with loud voices to make sure we can speak for those who are silenced. 

This isn't exactly what I had planned for today's post, but hopefully y'all still enjoyed it!
xx, jKm

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